my sweetheart

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

December Blues


Happy 2 years and and 11 months anniversary dear you and myself. Bosan tak tengok muka yang sama almost 2 years dah right now? And hopefully akan ada happy news tahun depan,do wait if you guys wanna know about it. I can't wait for it actually since I've been waiting for this quite some times now.

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

je t'aime

Hola,je t'aime! Okay,feeling macam nak pergi Perancis for free so who is up nak belanja me? *slap* Lately perasaan nak pergi travelling sangat kuat memancar-mancar dalam benak sanubari ku lalu percutian ke Cameron Highland telah dirancang bersama lelaki tersayang,Insyaallah bulan depan. Kenapa nak pergi bulan depan sebab bulan nie dah pokai,tau tak? Can't wait and might be nak ajak few of my friend to join,eh eh bestnya. Haha,monolog dalaman mesti nak kena extreme extravanganza. Okay,maafkan diri ini yang sangat hyper di hari Rabu yang mendung nie.

So how was your Hari Raya Aidil Adha? Me? I've blast dengan banyak jenis makanan yang my mum and my elder sister masakkan. Since I'm the youngest so bayangkanla betapa maharajalelanya myself bila kat rumah. So first raya we had laksa Terengganu sort of macam laksam bagi sesiapa yang tau cuma dimakan bersama laksa gandum la,sedap yang amat sampai bertambah sebanyak 3 kali. Buruk lantakkan? Dan disamping laksa,ada juga nasi dagang,sate dan ketupat. Nyum nyum! Petangnya makan steamboat that I made,requested by my sister. 

Second day raya,makan sup tulang,nasi arab dan oreo ice cream. See told ya,kalau balik kampung macam ada food galore at home sebab my mum tau anak-anak dia macam rakus dengan makanan. Sebab tu my mum suka kumpulkan anak-anak kalau ada occasion dan jamu kami dengan makanan. While typing ini pun teringin dan bestnya kalau dapat makan laksa sekarang! Okay,bye.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Alhamdulilah

I have 2 more weeks here in Diginex Technology Sdn Bhd as I am about to resign soon. And earlier this morning,I received a phone call from Transmile Air Services saying that I am chosen to be a part of them and I will start my new job on this 12nd November 2012. See,told ya I am awesome and thank you so much miss Maria Elena for actually make me become myself. Your word of wisdom and I am no longer afraid of actually being heard. 

So I am excited to start a new job at the new place and Insyaallah,I hope I will like it. I am excited,extremely. I don't have any new story to be told you guys here,so maybe you're boring reading mine and because of that,I am truly sorry. 

Today I received one more excitement,he bought me a gold bracelet,and I am wearing it while typing this. I like it so very much and I'm in love with it. Thank you so much sayang!

Thursday, October 18, 2012

this ain't supposed to happen

Currently dah rajin exercise twice a week,main badminton actually. And since dah rajin exercise nie,I found myself macam dah kurang nafsu nak makan lagi. And I always had my meal in a very small portion tapi sometimes tak boleh lawan nafsu makan jugak kan kalau makanan sedap dah terhidang di depan mata and it delicious. And yes,I very much different now with my shape macam dah ada yang sedikit mengecil daripada kebiasaannya. Adakah bermaksud yang saya dah kurus and about to come back to my M size?

Well,boleh dikatakan I am determined untuk kurus because baju-baju lama dah tak boleh muat and I feel ugly being a fat woman. And mana nak cari booth to sell them,means like macam event yang purposely orang pergi during the weekends? Please anyone let me know because trust me,unused baju I not that bad pun and ada yang I bought it tapi tak pakai and some of them still have the tags on. Haha,membazir kan and lucky me my mother don't read my blog so she wouldn't know about this unless you tell her. 

Last night,when I just finished watching Looper with my man and went back to home,a car suddenly macam himpit us on the road. Can you imagined macamana I mengelabah dalam kereta menjerit macam orang gila when I actually not pun. This is not our first time or my first,dah banyak kali orang try nak himpit and tukar lane without signal betul0betul depan our car and made us macam berhenti mengejut atas highway yang busy tu. So,I was like bukak tingkap and menjerit pada kereta yang nak himpit kitaorang sangat tu,'tengok side mirror please'. I know that was not an appropriate action to do tapi biasala,orang kalau dah panic attack like that boleh berfikir dengan waras lagi ke? You tell me.

P/s : A date with Miss Maria Elena Zarul this Saturday STYLING SESSION AT TESCO MUTIARA DAMANSARA 2PM!! Awesome!

P/s/s : Part time tutor at Enopi Putra Heights start tonight,wish me luck! 

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

I don't know what to do

I browsing through Cambridge University web page just now and I missed it. No,I am not spend my studies there but I've got an offer to further my study there,once. I missed having the opportunities of showing my abilities to the world. And yes,I've dropped it because of some reason. In the meantime,while browsing I keep thinking to further my degree since I only have my diploma and you know this world doesn't give a shit anymore about a Diploma holder and yes,I am embarrassed by it. Public said that Diploma holder are nothing and at least you should be a Degree holder to actually obtain a good position in a established company. And to be told,it hit me in my face quite a lot when I'm applied for a better position in a high name company these day.

Being judged to someone who I barely know is out from my league actually,but from someone who I look upon high,is actually hurt. Yet,I determine to further my study even by hook or crook and I will do it just to throw my Degree certificate right in front of their face one day. Well,you messed out with the wrong person. Since I am not born wealthy like some of yours,so it might take a while to do so. But I've set the plan and yes,with God's will,it will happen to be true someday. 

I don't know why these people are being do judgmental about a diploma or a degree holder. Hello,we were not buying those certificate but we earned it. So why the diploma holder like myself being left out and ignored? Somebody gotta showed up and explain it because I deserved much more better than this crap that you pulled. Plus,how come the "just" graduated person without an experience will be able to be accepted in your company if you,the BOD doesn't give a chance to him/her to gain an experience at your workplace?

 I pity your son/daughter when they will go apply the job one day and these thing will happen to them,turned out worse than mine. This is the big issue to be look out for rather than some skank artist that got married and finally divorce. They sure got issue with each other meanwhile I got issue with the world.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

I don't like you


I hate being lied,like I hate when I ordered food and when it reached my table,not as tasty like in the picture hanging at the wall. So do you get me now? I really hate being lied straight to my face,in front of me and I don't even noticed about it until someone told me. Seriously,get a life daripada kerja asyik nak menipu orang je dah kenapa? Sesak sangat dah ke kehidupan sendiri tu sampai ada masa nak menipu semua orang macam nie sekali? And the most important thing is,I don't like it when people that I trust the most lied to me. Once you lied to me,memang takkan ada kepercayaan lagi selepas itu walaupun apa yang you tipu tu macam remeh je,ala ciput je pun. Tipu tetap tipu macam berak tetap berak takkan nak cakap kencing kot. Menda  yang dah berlaku memang tak boleh nak reverse balik dah,so tanggung la relationship tanpa rasa percaya lagi sebab lepas nie apa yang keluar daripada mulut you tu,satu habuk pun I won't trust it anymore.

And one more thing,remembered I ada bagitau you guys yang I nak pergi bercuti dengan kawan I kat Gambang right? Well I did go tapi bukan itu yang I nak bagitau tapi I have one guy friend nie yang sangat noob. Dia dah kerja,berduit tapi kedekut macam apa plus suka tindas kawan sendiri and the most annoying part is,suka ikut kepala sendiri je. Dahla bergurau dengan kawan perempuan kasar bukan main and nak gurau macam gurau dengan budak lelaki. See,macam apa je perangai. Dahla tak respect orang langsung,cakap nak best je. I wonder macamana gf dia tahan dengan perangai bodoh sombong dia nie? Tak penat ke nak berlagak je sepanjang masa?

Lagi satu,kepada semua driver okay kalau nak tukar lane tu please make sure tolongla bagi signal. Nak I cabut ke your signal tu? Plus tu tak payah la nak selfish sangat atas jalan raya,menyampah tau. Orang lain pun ada kereta jugak walaupun tak sebesar dan semewah kereta you (kereta bank lagipun) tapi hormat la sikit. Means being consider pun dah cukup bagus da kot. Nie kalau nak pentingkan diri sangat,buat je jalan raya sendiri nak tengok jugak mampu tak mampu nak buat highway sendiri.

Annoying betul Malaysian nie. Have you been to Ikea restaurant? Nie lagi satu yang I nak marah tau,kenapa lepas makan tak boleh kemas meja tu untuk kegunaan orang seterusnya? Sebab orang Malaysia nie pemalas rupanya. Kalau kat rumah boleh kemas sendiri kenapa kalau makan dekat Ikea tak boleh kemas sendiri? Kenapa nak harapkan orang lain kemas pulak. Nak cakap sisa makanan tu kotor la,habis tu sisa makanan you jugak kan? Kalau taknak pegang sisa makanan sendiri,tak payah datang makan kat Ikea la,pergi kedai mamak sana ada orang nak tolong lapkan meja,kemaskan meja semua diaorang buat la pendek kata.

Sigh,Malaysian 

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

This is a reality of life

I need to start diet,like seriously have too. I'm fat already like 66kg? Imagined how bolted am I recently? I don't know what keeps me to eat a lot but I surely fall in love with food more than a human. He must be really frustrated reading this. In Malaysia,you name me one place that provide suck and UN-delicious food except for Chinese and Indian food because I'm not those food lover. (While typing this,I'm craving for Seoul Garden and Meatballs Ikea and Chicken Wing).  Argh,heaven of food!

I'm going to H&M this Sunday,so let's meet up there nak tak? Envy reading all those tweet about H&M and I feel I've must go there too. So this Sunday. H&M in Setia City Mall will be opening this 3rd Oct and I couldn't wait for that long.

I've been deactivated my facebook account,so yeah I've been jakun forever.

Friday, September 14, 2012

people around me

'You're too picky when it comes to choosing some friend to mingle.' What?!! Someone used to sat those word right to my face and I was like,WHAT? Am I that picky,I guess I'm not. In fact I make friend with almost everyone. That is something that I realized and something that I'm not aware is I am picky,I finally come one to this one.

I only make friend with the people that I usually comfortable sharing thing and thought. The people that from my species : rich. The people that can have some taste and can actually read my mind and aware that I am not comfortable being standing in front and I'm comfortable being in the middle and not to showing myself in front of the public. Do you get what I am saying? But it doesn't mean that I only have those rich friend. Don't get me wrong,I become friend with almost everyone but some of them are that rich,rich and not so rich. I'm in the middle. I don't know why I have these type of friend. But I actually feel glad that at least I have those social class in my list,so you can throw me anywhere and I will survive.

This coming Sunday I have an outing session with friend from my old college. I actually just know them and they're nice. But you're just know them and yeah,I will be feel awkward and stay numb sometimes because I kind off don't have a regular topic to start a conversation.

So,pray for me!

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

discount card

Recently lalu depan sebuah book store and perasan that diaorang ada tampal satu poster besar depan kedai diaorang yang student and government employee ada diskaun untuk beli buku. Student sebanyak 70% and employee kerajaan got 60% and private sector,none! This is surprise,like seriously Malaysia? Kenapa private sector dianaktirikan? I do think yang kami menyumbang paling banyak dari segi ekonomi untuk negara nie. So the question here,to be exact kenapa hanya student dan pekerja kerajaan je yang dapat benefit from all of this? Private sector nie,dahla takde benefit,kenaikan gaji pun susah nak dapat,bonus lagi la macam hampeh and the most important thing is,paling bias yang I could see and deal with it ialah masa nak buat loan.

Nak buat loan pihak bank only akan bagi keistimewaan pada pekerja kerajaan sahaja,private sector punya loan susah nak lepas. But if only pekerja kerajaan,senang je lepas and then diaorang pun happy-happy. What is this Malaysia,this bias system that you applied? I really don't get this,padahal waktu bekerja pekerja kerajaan berapa jam lah sangat nak dibandingkan dengan kami,pekerja swasta. In fact,kami during the office hour takde pun senang lenang nak main fcacebook,online twitter or even having our coffee break. This is not the benefit that I want just to make it different. And plus,I am not against the pekerja kerajaan just I want to state yang kami nie private sector macam tidak dihargai langsung.

In fact,kenapa baru sekarang nak keluarkan kad student yang ada potongan harga sampai 70% tu kalau akhirnya nanti bila diaorang grad,they don't even think pun nak bayar balik pinjaman pelajaran like I did every month!  See,what are you try to prove right now? Even my ex-classmate during my high school yang still lagi buat degree sekarang nie,they said by the time their finished studies,they hope that PTPTN dimansuhkan supaya they don't need to paid for it. So I nak tanya what is the exact point to do all this? For the poor? Hello,I am a poor kid too kenapa I tak dapat benefit nie time I study dulu? Why? 

I just don't get this attitude. And I don't know who to be asking for this. I am not that desperate but to tell you the truth,berapa la sangat gaji pekerja swasta nie sebenarnya. Jangan tengok pada gaji GM,QC,BOD,or even the CEO. Gaji engineer sekalipun kalau nak bayar rumah lagi,kereta sampai 2 biji,pendidikan anak-anak,belanja isi rumah untuk sebulan,simpanan nak pergi haji lagi,bayangkan berapa je tinggal untuk duit minyak dan duit tol sebulan? See,ini bill untuk kehidupan harian sebenarnya,kehidupan manusia yang berpijak pada bumi yang nyata. Entahla,fikirkan la.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

I do

Everyone around is getting married anytime soon,my best friend and my ex-classmate and I am happy for them. Finally they found their true love and want to settle down and live happily ever after. My best friend,kind of busy preparing herself for the big day. They will get engaged first on the 9th September and will get settle down next year,hopefully. Wedding fantasy! Tell me one girl in this world that do not want to get married? 

I also want to get married,the chance to say I Do to someone is actually mean something to me. The acceptance and the responsibility is actually been made after you said that. Responsible to someone and to take care of the family is so huge and Insyaallah,it is something that I want to do it in the future.

But nowadays,people tend to exaggerate about their wedding,something fancy and cost a lot of money tend to be make. I know maybe they can afford those fancy wedding but as for me,the life after the wedding ceremony itself,is more than important. It actually the life of two people together under the same house. And when you get pregnant,expenses will burden you sometimes. That is why,I kind of do not want all those fancy thing to be at my wedding someday. Enough with all the family and friends,I would be very happy. 

All girl wants the fairy tale wedding,but do the wedding that you can actually afford and do not do something that exaggerate and over the top and you gonna paid a fortune of it after the occasion and you starve yourself at the end,that not good. Simple and memorable it is something nice to be done. I always dream that for mine wedding,one day.


I want a small wedding and could be attend by family and some close friend of mine,a private wedding to be exact. We will be having a really nice decorated pelamin,and the most important it should be comfortable for him and for me to move around our guest. We will be having a barbeque because I do not want my guest to be too attached to the wedding custom. Everyone could wear a beautiful dress,men could wear jeans and just t shirt. Comfortable enough to get around and mingle with each other. That just a dream and I know my family won't let it happen on my wedding day.


Monday, September 3, 2012

tear us apart

Selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin semua. okay,I know that wouldn't be missed here but the thought that count right? cewah. so,how your raya everyone? fun enough? mine,hurm despite of having my mummy burned out in my car because moir forgot to switch on the air cond because couldn't remember to press out the button,raya was great! this year mum cooked nasi minyak during our first day of eid.

I ate like 3 times in a day and having curry mee at my aunt's place,having ketupat and chicken rendang at my second aunt's house and drink tons of carbonate drinks. guess that you will noticed how fat could be right now. I guess that a lot of people will eat tons of delicious food right now during this Syawal.

Not to forgot,Happy Independence Day Malaysia,you're 55th years old now. Still growing and peace I hope. The Independence means to me : be free,do whatever you want to do but please bear your limit people.

Right now,been blogging in the office while my boss out for some meeting and I kind of typing real fast here because I have tons of work to do. Haha,takde arah tujuan.


Thursday, August 9, 2012

fall from a tree

 
Jejaka idaman hati para wanita. Teruja tak nak baca? Okay,hari nie nak bercerita mengenai jejaka pilihan hati,ciri-ciri nya. Mestilah ciri-ciri saya tak vogue macam awak sekalian,tapi ini saya punya pilihan. So,korang pun boleh share dekat sini jugak. 

Antaranya :

1. Saya tak mendambakan lelaki handsome macam David Beckham atau sangat trendy macam Awal Ashaari,haip itu Scha punya. Hehe. Cuma biarlah seorang yang kemas dan smart pada pandangan mata saya supaya saya tak malu atau segan bila orang sekeliling melihat dia. Biar bersih,bukankah bersih itu dituntut dalam Islam? Jangan menjadi seorang yang pengotor kerana Allah S.W.T benci umat-Nya yang pengotor. Sebagai manusia sendiri pun mesti korang macam geli kan nak dekat dengan manusia yang pengotor. So,jaga kebersihan diri dulu barulah sesuai nak mengingatkan orang sekeliling terutamanya ahli keluarga,pakwezz dan husben.


 2. Bila dah berkahwin,mampu menyediakan kemudahan dan keselesaan dalam kehidupan kami,mampu menyediakan saya kereta untuk bergerak dan rumah untuk berteduh. Kalau boleh,saya ingin memulakan hidup baru berdua,barulah thrill. Nie duduk rumah mertua,tak merasa la nak bagi suami makan maggi je sekali sekala. Masa nie nak tau perangai sebenar husben tu macam mana orangnya,pengotor ke,suka bangun lambat ke,kentut bersepah ke,malas mandi dan macam-macam lagi.


 3. Cahaya mata yang comel dan bermata biru (sila baling batu sekarang). Kahwin dengan lelaki bermata hitam takkan dapat anak bermata biru melainkan . . . . sila sambung ayat. Bila dah hidup bersama,cahaya mata haruslah menjadi keutamaan dalam perhubungan. p/s : saya nak anak bermata biru!


Korang boleh share dengan saya jugak apa ciri-ciri lelaki/pakwezz/husben anda. Jangan risau,saya takkan tackle mereka :)

Thursday, August 2, 2012

dream big because you can


Who wanna go on a vacation to an island,having some romantic moment with your love and have a sweet dinner for two like the picture above? Okay,let me answer it because it was totally me wanna go on a vacation like this. So romantic and the most important thing is,so peaceful surrounded with beach,sand and this perfect scenery and the most important,him.

The place that I want to treasure the most are :
1. Mecca
2. Sontorini Island,Greece
3. Alexanderia,Egypt
4. Moscow,Rusia
5. London,Britain 
6. Las Vegas,US
7. Manhattan,US
8. Pulau Sipadan,Sabah

So,what if you my readers share with me the place that you want to treasure along with your love one? Who knows one day it will happen to be true,who know right?

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Secrets

Again because I can use the Coldplay's song as the tittle. Do you guys have a secret? I bet you do have kan,tak yah nak tipu sangat la kat sini,kbai. Annoying tak,because that the best I can actually do,the secret of being me. So today I want to reveal my secret here. And do you guys notice that I haven't post any picture in my blog here right? Because I don't want too,some sort the way to keep my own privacy. So please don't ask me why,I already give you my explanation right people?

Here is the list of my dark side :

1. I am very the baran people,sangat baran okay. Maybe it because pernah belajar karate when I was 7 years old and bila belajar kena kangkang sana sini,jalan bersepah,kaki asyik nak naik je,tangan pun cepat je nak bagi orang penampar and dulu mixed around with guys a lot,A LOT. Then bila dah master the karate skill,pantang orang cubit sikit memang aku belasah punya and I pernah belasah one chinese kid during my karate class because dia ejek nama I dari Tengku jadi Tengkujuh,totally not funny. And sampai hari nie,pantang dengar orang panggil nama Tengku je,memang aku takkan pandang dia or aku blah je dari situ sebelum aku angin. Kalau panggil nama penuh pun takpe. And masa first class standard 1,aku dengan selamba je pergi cakap kat cikgu kelas on my first day at school,"cikgu,I don't prefer to be called Tengku except you been calling my full name".

2. Jangan tanya soalan yang sama berulang kali or tanya soalan yang pada kepala otak aku kedengaran macam bodoh. Macam ko dah letak papan tanda cendol kecil RM3 and aku sendiri dah cakap nak cendol kecil satu pakcik,pastu ko boleh pergi cakap bandung nie RM2 ngan cendol nie RM2.50. Memang mulut nie teringin je nak jawab,"ada beza ke pakcik,kan tadi saya cakap saya nak cendol kecil satu". Tapi takdela jawab macam tu pun cuma itulah jangan nak tanya soalan macam tu lagi. Dahla aku paling benci nak kena cakap menda sama banyak kali,memang terus spoil mood.

3. Seorang yang sangat sinis. Ini macam kejam kan tapi ini memang tak dapat nak dikikis lagi dah. Aku paling gemar nak menjawab pada sesiapa je except pada parents la,orang lain termasuk la dalam category yang aku akan jawab balik even my boss. Yes,aku pernah menjawab balik kat boss aku sendiri and nasib baik tak kena pecat,haha. And biasanya aku akan menjawab dengan cara yang paling sinis sekali yang aku boleh fikir masa tu and kaw-kaw punya sampai boleh terasa and hempas pintu kuat-kuat depan muka aku tapi ada aku kisah pintu kau bukan pintu aku pun,lebih kurang macam tulah situasi nya.

4. I stand for my own right and thought. Yes,aku sangat outspoken and kalau aku rasa menda yang kau cakap tu,the fact macam bangkai je,memang aku akan bidas balik. Kau nak cakap kau anak Khir Toyo,boleh aku cakap la aku anak Sultan Brunei apa hal. Nak cakap macam tu,bukti mana der,tak main la cakap je bukti takde,sampai tua la aku tak percaya. Bak sini surat beranak aku nak tengok,nowadays people talk using a fact beb,kalau setakat air liur terpercik sana sini tapi bukti takde,memang takde orang nak percaya.

5. Tak perlu nak cakap besar depan aku pong pang pong pang tapi habuk pun takde,tak payah simpan je cerita Korea ko dalam poket ko aku tak sudi nak dengar. Muak sebab manusia macam nie berani cakap je,habuk takde. Words without an effort won't bring you anywhere man. Macamana nak bagi makan anak dara orang kalau berbekalkan air liur je? Nak makan pasir ke? Sampai bila la nak maju manusia macam nie?

So,ini jelah rahsia aku. Kejam and agak brutal rupanya seorang manusia yang bergelar Tengku Nurul Akmal binti Tengku Ismail nie. Sebab aku anak Tengku jadi perangai kena macam nie,bukan anak Khir Toyo pun. Sorry,terperli lagi.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

drive by

Selamat menyambut ramadhan kepada semua muslim dan muslimah semua. Bulan ini akan catat rekod paling banyak saya akan menuju ke dapur sebab I will be cooking for iftar and also encik teman lelaki iftar jugak. Susah bila kena jaga anak orang jugak nie sebab selera kami berbeza. Kebiasaannya saya suka lauk-lauk yang simple contohnya sambal tumis ke,masak air ke,singgang ke. Tapi kali nie,marilah memandang ke arah kari ayam,gulai ikan dan ayam sambal.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

wide awake

Yes,I ambil tajuk lagu Katy Perry because I can. As for all you know,I am currently working in a real working life. As I started my job a year ago,I'm fully excited and overwhelming with the ideas that I am finally working and can be independent. with the thought of being able to control my own expenses and shop for the branded designers and above all of that and now I finally realize that I am not happy at all doing what I am doing now which is working. Yes,macam tak bersyukur with what I have now but it was what I do thinking right now.

This time I will surely not put a blame on my hormone. I hate the fact to think that I have to wake up early in the morning and off to work. Being front with my office mate and boss,really made me off the mode for the whole day. Trust me,you will feel bad when you off to the place that you gained money every month but you hate the surrounding because I do feel that. Maybe I have the worse office mate ever. 

I can't understand people gives other people their own chores just to have pleasure surfing internet all the times and when boss doing some what-to-call-pengawasan-in-english,they gelabah and sometimes playing a role in front of boss' face. Pura-pura busy and all,and sometimes even menyibuk in my own work. But when boss not around,huh belang dah keluar. When all of this happened,I felt bad for myself. And that make me thinking,apa dosa yang I dah buat sampai orang layan macam nie? I sedih tau tengok manusia-manusia yang bermuka depan orang lain. 

I was a junior here,and sikap sendiri tak suka masuk campur urusan orang lain buatkan orang nampak I lemah and naive which is I am totally not. Cuma ada perasaan malas nak cari gaduh dekat tempat rezeki,so saya diamkan je. Dan recently I be thinking of resigning. Walaupun my friend bising cakap lately susah nak cari kerja,but I have already made up my mind hujung bulan nie nak resigning. I believe in Rezeki ada di mana-mana kalau kita usaha, Insyaallah. 

Sorry sebab meluahkan perasaan but I have too. Taknak serabutkan anyone else.

Friday, July 13, 2012

call me maybe


Lately I found out that when I hate something or someone it will shown straight away on my face,as I can't hide it away. This is bad right? Please tell me it is bad because it might hurt people feelings. As if I wish that I can keep it to myself only but I can't. Kalau boleh,although I really hate that person I don't want they know about it and I try to layan them so nicely until sometimes I felt like this is too much and I stop pretending that it's okay and I start to make face,hate face in front of them. Yet,despite of I have to work along with them I still can't help those feeling. I feel awful because I can't help the way I feel and the way people feels about me,I just don't give a damn about it. 

Maybe because of the hormone too. Yeah,blame the hormone is the best way now. Ramadhan is coming and I do hope that this feeling will get away and I will be better than this. Hate is killing and I don't want to be killed. Ain't good for anyone around me.

Monday, July 2, 2012

Patah kaki dan tangan

Siapa dah baca metro hari nie mesti familiar dengan title my post kan? Pelik kan,apa salah baby tu sebenarnya? Apa motif pengasuh durjana tu nak buat macam tu? Apa hak dan siapa bagi kau hak nak buat kat anak orang macam tu? Seriously,I do feel bad for the family,the baby family not the nanny. Pengasuh tu patut dikenakan hukuman gantung sampai mati tak pun patahkan je kaki dengan tangan dia pulak,biar dia rasa pulak macam mana azab baby tu. Bodoh punya manusia macam tu. 

Nanti anak saya,memang tak la nak hantar pergi pengasuh ke apa ke,nak jaga sendiri je. Sanggup berhenti kerja,anak kot susah nak dapat. Bernasib baik dapat la,anak kan rezeki. Siti Nurhaliza kahwin dah berapa tahun pun tak dapat anak lagi,rezeki kan Allah SWT yang tentukan. Saya memang sanggup berkorban berhenti bekerja kalau perkara-perkara macam nie berlarutan. Walaupun ajal jodoh semua kerja Allah SWT tapi kes nie memang trauma. Anak kot,siapa tak sayang. 

Biarlah hidup susah pun nanti,pendapatan daripada satu sumber sahaja asalkan anak saya selamat membesar,tidak didera sesiapa pun. Biarlah susah,janji anak-anak selamat. Sekarang nie pengasuh yang dah kenal lama pun tak boleh percaya. Dah banyak kes-kes macam nie berlaku? Mana tindakan dari pihak yang berkenaan? Senyap je,makan gaji buta ke? Patutnya kes nie dah lama settle dan takkan berulang lagi sebab ini berkaitan dengan nyawa generasi muda kita,anak-anak kita. Bertindaklah cepat,takkan nak terkena kat anak sendiri baru nak bertindak. Dah-dah la tu tidur petang,makan gaji buta,masuk kerja pukul 9 pagi balik pukul 5 petang,makan 4 kali sehari time kerja. Tak malu ke? Gaji nak banyak tapi kerja malas nak buat.

Friday, June 22, 2012

I will definitely fall in love with you


Terliur tak tengok gambar atas nie? Kalau terliur,meh sini nak belanja. Well,I'm a coffee lover,everyday I drink coffee like it was my energy drink and it becomes my best friend since that day. BUT milk + coffee are more sexy,so delicious and thank you Nescafe for finally comes out with something out from the box,extraordinary. You Nescafe will be my best buddy ever!


here you can try out some new excitement game,sorry couldn't post here because I'm blogging through my office. Peace! 

Thursday, June 21, 2012

the KWSP thing is

Had umur KWSP sekarang dah meningkat,umur 60 tahun baru boleh keluarkan simpanan. Apakah ini? Habis kalau seseorang tu tak sempat hidup sampai umur dia 60 tahun,habis tak merasa la duit simpanan dia. Kenapa nak ubah had umur sampai macam tu sekali? Itu kan duit simpanan pekerja,duit kitaorang yang bekerja nie? Apa hak sesebuah organisasi tu nak maktubkan rang yang baru tanpa persetujuan semua pihak yang menyimpan? Apa hak korang,cuba bagitau aku.

FOMCA sibuk nak lanjutkan umur pengeluaran,kalau macam tu sampai umur 60 tahun baru merasa nak pakai duit simpanan KWSP nak beli rumah,nak beli kereta baru,nak ubahsuai rumah,nak pergi haji,nak melancong pusing Eropah(impian saya je nie). Tak adil okay,sebelum nie dah elok 55 tahun apasal nak lanjutkan lagi? Memang la bukan berkuatkuasa tahun nie,tapi kalau tahun depan orang yang dah genap usia 55 tahun takkan kena tunggu lagi 5 tahun umur genap 60 baru boleh keluarkan? Apa nie wey,seriously memang tak puas hati. Nak sain petition la macam nie,mana peti petition?

Tak merasa la macam nie nak guna duit simpanan masa bekerja. Katakanlah ajal dah sampai sebelum umur 60 tahun,memang saya hantuilah pegawai yang sibuk-sibuk mak ayam tu nak lanjutkan had umur. Memang saya nak merasa jugak duit jerit perih saya tu,tak adil la macam nie? Siapa nak join buat bantahan aman Bersih 5.0 pulak. Sorry Ambiga,pinjam jap 'perjuangan' adil awak ea,jangan nak kedekut sangat la. Kan sharing is caring?

So,for those who are decided in changing the KWSP age limit,please la consider orang macam saya yang langsung TAK RELA rang itu dilaksanakan. Kalau laksana jugak,memang suruh bos tak payah potong epf lagi la lepas nie,tak pun suruh accountant company simpan duit epf tu dalam akaun lain. Boleh tak buat macam tu? Nak buat jugak tak kira la kalau betul jadi 60 tahun baru boleh keluarkan duit simpanan KWSP tu,mak tak kira tau!

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

PTPTN issues

PTPTN memang jadi issue besar lately,everybody talks about it like it was the end of the world. Everybody includes my favorite blogger,Hanis Zalikha she is pretty I told ya. Okay,back to PTPTN. Saya bukanlah peminjam PTPTN tegar kerana saya adalah budak MARA tapi kenapa nak mansuhkan PTPTN actually,I don't see this langkah nak mansuhkan adalah yang terbaik dikalangan yang terbaik. 

Here are my reason (NOTE : my reason not yours) :

1. Saya bukanlah dilahirkan di dalam keluarga yang kaya raya boleh shopping tiap-tiap hari,parents migrates to States boleh pergi class bawa Bentley sebiji ke apa,no I'm not that rich. So pinjaman pelajaran adalah sangat membantu since saya gunakan duit yang diberi PINJAM itu untuk beli buku,makan,duit tambang bas,duit fotostat nota,duit sewa rumah,duit beli makanan untuk satu bulan dan duit topup. So kalau pinjaman PTPTN dimansuhkan,dan saya misalnya bukanlah kaya sangat,macamana nak sambung belajar?

2. Free education. Pinjaman MARA saya RM36,000 untuk 6 semester. So kalau 150 orang pelajar pinjam RM36,000 = RM5,400,000. Pengetahuan umum saya mengenai keadaan ekonomi Malaysia takdela gred A++ cuma saya boleh katakan Malaysia mungkin boleh bagi pendidikan percuma cuma ianya tidak akan dilaksanakan dalam masa terdekat ini. In fact,Hanis Zalikha menyatakan yang Finland bagi pendidikan percuma untuk rakyat jelatanya. Itu Finland,kita Malaysia. Kita belum mampu lagi. Pendidikan dekat sekolah rendah dan menengah free ke? Dulu rasanya bayar yuran sekolah,yuran peperiksaan,yuran PIBG,yuran koperasi la semua tu. Mungkin free pada masa sekarang,tapi rasanya yuran sekolah free tapi lain-lain yuran tak free kan? (called kakak jap nak tanya pasal yuran). Confirm wey,yuran sekolah je free yang lain-lain mak ayah tanggung lagi. Batak semua nak free korang nie kan? Seluar dalam ngan bra nak tak kalau orang bagi free? Mesti malu nak ambil kan,takut ada orang ejek.

3. Mahasiswa yang nak sangat mansuhkan PTPTN sampai sanggup buat bantahan. Boleh saya tahu sebabnya? Apa yang membuatkan korang nak sangat mansuhkan pinjaman tu sebenarnya? Taknak bayar,tak mampu bayar,mengada taknak bayar atau korang memang kacang lupakan kulit,habis madu sepah dibuang? PILIH! Kesian,masa nak pinjam memang lembut habis,cakap baik-baik pijak semut pun mati. Tapi masa nak bayar,bantahan sana sini,buat malu golongan mahasiswa sahaja. Tak tahu diuntung betul perangai macam nie. Nasib saya dah tergolong golongan bekerjaya.

4. Interest tinggi. Kepala otak semua interest tinggi,pinjam bank nak beli kereta dengan rumah tu,interest lagi tinggi la wey sampai 8%? Nie 1% je pun,ia 1% nie baru diwar-warkan tahun nie je pun tahun sebelum nie tinggi tapi melampau sangat alasan taknak bayar pinjaman sebab interest tinggi. Okay,pinjam duit mak ayah lepas nie kalau nak sambung masters sebab PTPTN interest tinggi. Kalau mak ayah tak bagi,pergi buat bantahan duduk,mogok lapar,pukul polis sana sini. Tak pun,tetak je mak ayah,sekarang nie kalau tak puas hati belasah je,jangan bagi muka langsung.

5. Tak rasa malu ke dah pinjam duit orang lepas tu taknak bayar balik? Kalau duit sendiri,RM10 pn berkira kejar sampai mati inikan beratus ribu ringgit macam tu,lagilah orang kejar. Tak malu ke tiba-tiba kena tahan dekat airport sebab tak bayar duit PTPTN,mak malu tau nak oi. Bukan kena bayar terus sejumlah besar tu,boleh bayar sikit-sikit apa,slow-slow lagi. Bayar relaks jelah,janji bayar jugak. PTPTN stands for PINJAM TAHU,PULANG TAK NAK. 

6. Mak Ayah dah kaya,reason nie memang best sekali. Siapa cakap macam nie memang antara golongan berlagak dengan duit orang lain,habis mak ayah ko kaya hari nie esok kalau bankrap,ko nak belajar pakai duit siapa? PTPTN jugak. Kalau result gempak,takpela jugak. Nie result buat malu muka mak ayah je,tak payahla sambung belajar,buat perabis duit je.
 
 Bukan nak cakap besar sebab duit pinjaman MARA saya pun belum habis bayar,tapi saya cuba untuk bayar setiap bulan pada masa yang ditetapkan,sebab saya fikir ada lagi orang yang tak bernasib baik,hidup susah tapi kepala otak genius nak sambung belajar dan nak guna duit tu. So,ikhlas saya bayar balik sebab nak tengok seorang lagi anak bangsa kita berjaya. Mana kesedaran sebagai manusia,hamba Allah? Kalau nak cakap hukum hutang dalam Islam,memang pengetahuan saya cetek. Saya cuma boleh nyatakan pandangan saya secara umum sahaja. 

Sekian. Tak puas hati,boleh cari gaduh kat comment box (eh,tak mau la ea).

Saturday, June 9, 2012

So I look in your direction,but you pay me no attention,do you?

Anger,how do you cope with this one? I personally have a really bad massive huge tempered,don't cha messed with me people. If I'm mad,trust me you won't bear to be around me even if you're my family. 
When I was little (ayat nak poyo speaking ongputih je),none of my family members akan got really freaks out kalau saya buat salah sebab they used to it. Yes,saya dibesarkan dengan tiada seorang pun ada hati nak marah si kecil budak comel kalau jentik sikit terus menangis dan pecahkan tv,yes saya pernah pecahkan tv rumah semasa berusia 6 tahun kerana telah dimarah akibat daripada pulang bermain ketika Maghrib (ayat poyo). Lalu dengan tindakan mengejut,saya telah menolak tv terbabit lalu ianya bersepai (enough with the SPM ayat).

Sejak daripada itu,mereka tidak lagi memarahi saya untuk sebarang kesalahan. Semasa umur 14 tahun,saya ponteng tuition class dan kantoi dengan abang saya,lalu balik rumah je terus kena penampar sebiji dengan pipi gebu. Dengan marah nya,saya ambil pisau kat dapur terus tusuk tayar motor dan 2 biji kereta di rumah,haha (gelak kejam). Semua macam tergamam lantas saya membuat muka poyo,berani nak marah lagi lepas nie?

Setelah selesai,mereka tak pernah marah sebaliknya menggunakan pendekatan bercakap dengan nada rendah walaupun tengah marah. Saya mengaku saya memang panas baran,tiada seorang manusia dalam dunia nie yang boleh cool down kemarahan saya melainkan emak saya. Mungkin korang nak bercakap saya seorang yang sangat kurang ajar,saya tak kisah. Kalau saya ambil peduli apa yang orang sekeliling nak cakap,da lama saya kebulur la nampaknya. 

Jangan cari pasal dengan saya,saya boleh maki orang dalam Bahasa Melayu dan English dengan lancarnya,haha. No la,kalau tak buat salah takkan kena maki. Cuma sekarang kena belajar nak control anger because of it's bad for me and my inner self. Like this morning,baru je lepas bergaduh dengan Encik Boyfie tapi macam biasala dia malas nak layan,pantang betul. Berbeza dengan Late Alex,dia tak pernah buat saya marah walau sekali pun,and even kalau saya marah dia akan mengalah dan cakap,I'm sorry tho not his fault pun. Tapi dengan Encik Boyfie,dia mengalah lepas tu buat muka-malas-nak-layan-perempuan-meroyan jadi ambil lah kau layan perasaan sendiri.

Cara untuk redakan kemarahan perempuan ini senang gila la wa cakap lu,BELANJA MAKAN BEST sahaja,amik aku bocorkan tips. Yes,dengan cara itu la Alex selalu redakan kemarahan selalunya belanja ice cream je,he's so sweet what do you expect? How I missed him each time I get mad sebab selalu terfikirkan muka dia yang cuak setiap kali nampak muncung itik saya keluar. He was my loyal friend,really loyal. Okay enough before I cried.

So,ada cara best lagi tak nak redakan kemarahan please let me know.

amal ismail

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

tangga boleh buat orang kurus

Hari nie da masuk 2 hari rumah takde air,imagine perempuan nie mandi kat mana? yes,RNR Setia Alam.. sungguh kesian okay,tak pernah rasa sesusah dan seperit nie kehidupan aku.. And tak pernah mandi kat tempat macam tu okay,sedih dan perit kehidupan ini.. Nampak tak kat situ betapa aku tak pernah hidup susah? dan yang paling tak boleh blah adalah,bukan setakat takde air je tapi lift pun rosak dan jahanam gara-gara mat bangla kat apartment tu suka naik ramai-ramai.. Terus,turun dan naik tangga la jawabnya,kurus kot kejap..


amal ismail

Friday, June 1, 2012

I'm trusting you,don't make me regret it


Wish that I could have this superb body at this moment,because I've gained weight like mad right now. Well blame me because I ate rice almost 2 time per day,so walawei. No one ever wanted anything more than I want this body to be mine. Seriously memang stress when nothing in your wardrobe can fit you anymore and I rarely have much time to go shopping anymore and I keep wearing the same clothes to the office. And the worse part is,I can't fit in my favorite jeans anymore.  

amal ismail

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

I wish you could hear all the word I'm too afraid to say


But what if tomorrow you notice my flaws and imperfections and don't look at me the same way as you did today?

amal ismail

Thursday, May 17, 2012

for once I want to talk to you again,just like the old times


Working world made me sick,seriously. I missed my studies life recently. Imagined you started working at 8AM and finished it up by 6PM,imagine that? Tiring and boring completed set sometimes. Life as a student sometimes I managed to skip class and go to the mall but working life,I simply can't do that. If only I want it to,have to fill up the annual leave form or MC je. I do this way a lot(hopefully boss didn't read this)

Kind of pathetic when I'm blogging this while everyone else out for lunch and me alone in this office. Seriously,appreciate more your student life because you'll missed it so much when you're working. 

Till then,
amal ismail

Thursday, April 19, 2012

I really miss talking to you

Don't be afraid,even though people might say what you're doing isn't cool or isn't right. I promise you,you will not regret it if you stay true to who you are and what you love to do.

How can something that's supposed to make you so complete,end up leaving you so empty?


amal ismail

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

breath in the future,breath out the past

I guess I'm still holding on to something that i know will probably never happen because somewhere deep down inside me, I have this little piece of hope someday,it will.


amal ismail

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

adventure begins when comfort has left you



being so busy after entering the working isn't that cool enough because i neglected my blog for almost 4 months now.. and now I'm blogging at my office in between my time doing my job,cool right? nothing much happened actually,just the same old chores..

trust me,working ain't that cool like studying world.. it is so hard and tiring,i have no time left for myself.. weekends just for me to sleep and doing laundry and spend time with him,that's it.. pathetic right? well,i missed my study life.. working life just making me nervous,people are just people,they shouldn't make you nervous..


amal ismail