my sweetheart

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

PS i love you

I don’t know why I love him the way I do. He makes me feel so safe and so loved, in his arms I am truly free. The way he looks at me sends shivers down my spine but I know everything will be okay. He always makes everything okay. When he smiles at me my heart could soar. Every stupid love song on the radio belongs to us. It’s so nice just to love him and not care and know that he loves me back. It’s nice to be with him and spend time with him and watch his sweet face as he sleeps and to feel his heart beat. I think if you felt our heartbeats they would beat at the same time. I feel like this is what I was meant to feel, like all the others were just practice, but this is for real. He makes me feel like I could be anyone and do anything I wanted. The way he protects me makes me melt, and the way he is so overprotective. I’m not afraid anymore, he’s always comforting me and letting me know he’s with me every step of the way. So this is what true love feels like.

amal ismail

Monday, November 29, 2010


my lips are like candy

amal ismail

i want to be disappear forever

seriously,down gila skrg nie.. always ada je yg comes up in between whenever i wanna feel happy.. i want to be disappear forever..

amal ismail

Thursday, November 25, 2010

hang on there!

hey bestie,don't get upset.. maybe she don't deserve you and maybe you are way too good enough for her.. trust me,i have been there in your place for so many times,so just hang on there and smile because it will cure.. it just need some times.. i know you tough enough to handle it and I'm glad you called me.. whenever you feel down,you know that you can count on me although it 3 am in the morning,I'll always have time for my friend.. just chill :)

you still have 4 years to go,bring back your medicine scroll for me and we are so gonna rock the world together :D

don't get upset because of someone that doesn't belong to you,it's not worth of it.. love will come to you once you are ready for it.. don't search for it,it comes upon you.. don't worry,this pain will help you learn the rest of this journey..
back in your summer break and we go hunt the local girl for you :P

amal ismail

p/s - i'm gonna told your mum that you are not studying back in Ireland but you are flirting with those hot chick back there! you are so out of your allowance this time.. oh,i want my present,you know what i meant!

Monday, November 22, 2010

call me miss been there done that

hello love bird out there,have you ever grab your partner hands,sit back drink coffee and have a cheese sandwich and recall all those sweet moment you guys ever had? well,i bet you are not.. but i have done that all the times and it actually fun.. you guys should try it.. recall all the bittersweet moment,arguing,bad mouthing,i love you moment,going out for a date,watching movies,stuck in a car because of the bad traffic for hours together having nothing but talking to each other,those are memories,the sweet one.. trust me,you should do that more often then you will remember the reason why you fall in love with your partner :)

been all over the world
done a little bit of everything
little bit of everywhere
with a little bit of everyone
all the boys I've been with
things I've seen it takes much to impress
but sure enough your glow it makes your soul stand up from all the rest

love is like when you are eating chocolate,you wanna feel the joy and satisfaction.. you can't have joy without satisfaction also you can't have satisfaction without joy.. so to remains the taste,you ought to have both of them..

boys you are one in a million
you are
baby you're the best that i ever had
best i ever had
and I'm certain that
there ain't nothing better

you can't feel the presence of love by saying 'i love you'.. you have to be in that and feel the joy and satisfaction both,together..

i could be in love
but i just don't know
baby one thing is for certain
whatever you do it's working
other boy's don't matter
in your presence can't do what you do
there's a million boys around but i don't see no one but you :)

amal ismail

Friday, November 19, 2010

sometimes it hurts me but you don't know

'and everything will be better..'

yeah,i hope everything will be better for me someday.. yeah,a freaking ONE DAY.. i hate it when people think that i am not capable in doing anything.. please,everything will be better..

amal ismail

it's for you


amal ismail

Thursday, November 18, 2010

di pagi hari raya

mesti you thought minah nie takde life ke,instead of online di pagi raya? haha,hey i do have a life la.. just ada orang in my house right now and i'm kindda tak suka nak show off my face sangat so i online la.. :)

padahal malas nak layan tetamu.. haha,i memang tak suka nak layan guest sangat kot especially someone yang i memang totally tak kenal.. bukan sombong ke apa,just i hardly can mix people yang baru kenal.. agak macam susah sikit la sebab i memang tak mesra sangat.. so,i prefer take other way around.. don't judge me before you know me,i tak sombong ea.. cuma tak pandai berkawan je.. and i tak pemalu pun..


amal ismail

Wednesday, November 17, 2010


my love life is a secret,i wanna put it as a secret and unknown.. so you guys are so not gonna hear anything about my relationship in here,but i do talked about love..


amal ismail

Saturday, November 13, 2010

reminder to myself

One of the advices I would give to my children is to NEVER OVER-ANALYZE. Especially not about people you surround yourself with everyday(unless it concerns his or her future).. Seriously, f*ck trivial issues like “does he or she talk about me behind my back?” “what if he or she’s just friends with me for a reason?” “Is he or she using me?” “what does he or she really think of me?

Who gives a shit really? First of all, people are always gonna talk about you behind your back, you just have to ACCEPT IT.. secondly, half of the stuff you hear from people might not even be true! Instead of wasting 2-3 hours of your precious day trying to resolve a “world-crisis”, get on with your studies and be friends with EVERYONE regardless of their intentions, but just be careful when you’re around people who mean harm..

And please, I’ll shove dog poo in my kid’s face if he comes up to me one day and says “oh mommy I’ve made a list of my closest friends and I’ve canceled off the bad ones”. A list? Seriously? Are u fucking kidding me? Get a job child! -ignore the shove dog poo in my kid's face-

We’ll always encounter all sorts of people in our lives- selfish ones, ignorant ones, manipulative ones, nasty ones, rude ones, (without them the world won’t be an interesting place) but we all need to get off our high horses and stop making judgments- “oh what is wrong with this person? why is she like this? should i confront her, it’s for her own good”..

There’s more to life than our “little circle of friends” whom we’re constantly trying to ‘fix’. Let them be the way they are, that’s what makes them THEM. At the end of the day, u know u enjoy being in each other company and everyone’s gonna be there for each other..

but kid,if you are tired to deal with this bunch of people,WALK AWAY and COME TO MOMMY.. because I'll know my kid better and they don't deserve you in their life stranger.. i want them to be tough enough to face the stranger in their life because the stranger is only there to watch my kid's destroy but i won't let them win.. i learn the pain and mad in life,it ain't easy and it ain't sweet and i don't want my kid's to feel it too.. if they fall let them fall in front of my knee cause i smashed them down to give them a lesson not THEM..

the end

amal ismail

p/s - I'll make sure i tell this to my kid some day

reading is sexy :P

i love this :)

amal ismail

Friday, November 12, 2010

i prefer to be drown in my own mind

i choose to drown in my own mind.. i don't want friend because i had enough of them in ME,kaki penipu,perampas,suka tikam belakang,suka cakap belakang,suka mengumpat etc.. see,i told you right i PREFER to be drown in my own mind because it doesn't hurt me a lot like they do..

amal ismail

it takes my breath away :D


amal ismail

traditional person

I may not talk or act it, but I’m a very traditional person inside.. So it’s normal that I hold onto a lot of traditional values, like I believe in chivalry, I believe the guy should always be the main provider of the family, and I believe the lady should always look up to the man and respect him (provided he deserves it) etc. And I’m not anti-feminist but I don’t think women should spend half of their lives fighting for equality. Or maybe it’s just how I interpret ‘equality’ -Women wanting to do what men can do,be treated like men, wanting to be independent etc..But with ‘equality’, u can’t expect chivalry to also exist, can you? I think the word equality carries a negative connotation, the correct word here should be ‘empowerment’- where women don’t focus on demanding ‘equality between genders’, but to strive for better lifestyles and be involved in decision-makings, be aware of their rights, and be empowered to do what they want to do without being dictated by society etc..

Ok whatever.

Where there’s no inequality, no dominance, no violation, no force, there is no sexual arousal” - Catherine McKinnon

I like macho guys. bye

amal ismail

i can have it all or crashed it

amal ismail

malaysian :)

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have you?

Have you ever looked at the guy you used to like and think "Oh my fucking gosh, why did I like him?" You try to figure out what in the hell was good about him and nothing comes in mind that you begin to point out all the negative things. But back then when you actually liked him you didn't care about all those imperfections because they didn't matter to you..

amal ismail

sometimes truth is hurt


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currently I'm injured very bad.. like so-very-bad-nak-mampus-because-i-can-feel-my-heart,you know it right? it's okay guys,i am good in healing myself..

amal ismail

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

amal ismail

i wish that i could find the words to say

I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Felt like a scene on the cutting room floor
When I let you walk away tonight without a word

I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling, oh
If you were here right now I swear I'd tell you this

Baby, I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside, it's killing me
'Cause all I ever want
It comes right down to you, to you

I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby, I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls, yeah
I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no
I've memorized the number so why can't I make the call?
Maybe 'cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility, oh

Baby, I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside, it's killing me
'Cause all I ever want
It comes right down to you, to you

I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby, I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable, oh, no, no, no

I don't wanna be like this
I just want to let you know
That everything that I hold in
Is everything I can't let go
Oh, I can't let go, yeah

'Cause baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside, it's killing me
'Cause all I ever want
It comes right down to you, to you

I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby, I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable, oh, no no no
Don't you know it, baby?
I don't wanna waste another day

I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby, I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable, yeah yeah yeah
Oh, I'm inconsolable, whoa yeah
I'm inconsolable

amal ismail

i'm a sucker

why i always drag people in with me whenever i feel down about something? and why people always get jealous on me whenever they see i am smiling? can get rid of it huh? i don't know,feel like having a worst day ever today because i can't even smiling today.. sesiapa boleh belanja shopping tak just because i wanna laugh? -slap to my face-

i do think i am a sucker because i suck people emotion to be down with me.. that was what my mum always said to me because she don't want to be near me whenever i am down.. haha,macam busuk je kan padahal badmood je kot.. and yes,i totally agree with her when she said,no one in this WORLD would understand me not even my future-husband-lambat-lagi-la-tu-nak-kahwin.. memang pun,because when i merajuk,takkan ada orang mampu pujuk i.. hahaha,padahal i rasa senang je kot nak pujuk i,bribe me with something that i like jelah macam cake,shoes,handbag or something else..

i memang terrible person kot beside i'm unique (this is not me who saying this word at first,tapi da ramai sangat orang ckap i memang macam tu,so terima jela) because i don't do stuff like normal person do.. OMG,i'm a freak!!

takdela freak mana pun just i think something too complicated because i mengaku i memang ada complicated set of thinking,i obsessed with cheese cake more than anyone else,i am a food lover,if i am on my lazy mood,i can lay down for hours without making single move kot.. i have a loud voice and i love to laugh,memang gila-gila punya suka la.. and when i hate about something or someone,it shown on my face and i walk away.. i find myself easily ask an apologize but i hardly can forgive people.. i love fashion but i never being a fashion victim i love shoes and handbag like HELL..

see,i am insane sometimes.. but i don't want to just be someone you will always remember,but someone you can't posibbly forget..

amal ismail

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

don't you worry

do you love your mum?

here are a story about someone that can be called my family's friend.. she is so beautiful,intelligent and also wealthy.. but ashamed of her is that she treating her mum like her maid.. at first i don't believe it but until i saw it with my own eyes,yes i did believe.. she scolded her mum whenever she wants it too,she being nice with her mum whenever she wants it too.. pity her mum,so scared of her own daughter.. sometimes i saw her mum crying because of her.. pity this old woman,she don't deserved that..

can't you imagine your mum carry you around in her womb for 9 months and at the end you scold her back? memang tak patut langsung.. i am not trying to be an angel here because sometimes i do get mad on my own mum,but it will never across on my mind to do such thing.. it is so embrassing because i do respect her,a lot.. i don't have a word anymore,feeling like wanna crying now.. i can't even thinking what will happened next to the aunty?

and what will i do if it happened to my mum?

amal ismail

Monday, November 8, 2010

amal ismail

let they do the story

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it's not so bad

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.

amal ismail

i can always make you smile

Hi, I'm that best friend of yours who was always there when you were so down you didn't even feel like getting out of bed some days. But hey, your life's going good now right? You don't need me to listen to your problems or to laugh with any more, you've gotten yourself new people while I'm sat here gathering dust waiting for you to notice me and pick me back up.

amal ismail

where were you?

who is your best person that you might choose to listen to your problem? as for me,i run over to my mum's hug all the time.. the best place ever in my life.. trust me,run to your mum's hug first because that is the secure place ever.. only our mum will understand us better than anyone else..

amal ismail

xoxo,gossip girls!

yes,nothing in this world is like fairytale,NONE!

amal ismail

Sunday, November 7, 2010

only LOVE can calm me

hey people,sorry because lack of update recently.. i'm kinda busy because my niece are around.. so much fun hanging out and catching up.. i kinda miss the friendship amongst us and also the family bounding amongst us.. you can't even imagine how close i am with my family.. only THEIR LOVE can calm me.. oh,you must wondering why i posted out so many pictures in my blog lately right? i found out this is beautiful and yeah,tarra for your READERS..

wait for more awesome pictures people..

amal ismail

i wish i couldn't feel a damn thing

amal ismail

can i kick someone ass?

nothing much to say

amal ismail

will you marry me?

'when we got married I told my wife "If you leave me, I'm going with you.And she never did.'

amal ismail

does the cupid really exist?

grace means more than gifts. In grace something is transcended, once and for all overcome. grace happens in spite of something; it happens in spite of separateness and alienation. Grace means that life is once again united with life, self is reconciled with self. grace means accepting the abandoned one. grace transforms fate into a meaningful vocation. It transforms guilt to trust and courage. The word grace has something triumphant in it.

amal ismail

Thursday, November 4, 2010

meet my 1st love :D

'First romance, first love, is something so special to all of us, both emotionally and physically, that it touches our lives and enriches them forever.'

amal ismail

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

forgiveness is the best remedy

'Dan tidaklah ada yang mereka ucapkan (semasa berjuang), selain daripada berdoa dengan berkata: “Wahai Tuhan kami! Ampunkanlah dosa-dosa kami dan perbuatan kami yang melampau dalam urusan kami, dan teguhkanlah tapak pendirian kami (dalam perjuangan); dan tolonglah kami mencapai kemenangan terhadap kaum yang kafir.'

amal ismail

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

catch me if you can :P

catch me if you can!! you can't because you're not fast enough people.. ok,statement nak cari gaduh..

nothing much to write since my life is pretty dull being at home.. yeah,I'm at home,the most secure place ever in my life.. have you ever being at home and feel unsecured? hahaha,lantak la kan but the most important is i do feel secure.. ok,i memang melalut and lari topik da nie..

anyway,today is 1st november 2010.. so it coming to the end of 2010 in awhile.. hurm,my wishlist isn't complete yet.. T_T

can wishlist be postponed to the next year?

amal ismail