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Tuesday, June 18, 2013

plain nothing

Hi, blogging at the office during lunch time now.

Nothing much to update here recently, hectic life everyday since I'm working, not enough rest and ruined relationship were what I had recently. Life is always hard being an adult and how I wish i will never grow up to face all the problem coming in future. Seriously, I'm tired and right now I'm taking a step which is I don't bother anymore of the is actually happen now and might happen in the future. Enough is enough and once you're lying to me there is no turning back anymore. Embrace it man. Who start it first?

You might see that I'm laughing outside, being a happy me is very deceiving for some people.  I look happy but do you know what happened inside? Well yeah, you didn't know that so it is easy for you to talk randomly about it. Life is that easy for you right? Since you can talk bad about others. Yeah, you just don't care. Wait until it hit you right on your face and you'll see I talk bad about it too. Well might be not me but other people will do the same. 

People, haven't change a bit since the day I was born. 

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Perfectionist Disorder

Hi, I know it been awhile since I've been here writing in my column. Since i know no one is gonna read about my life eventhough,sincere jokes.

It a V-day today so Happy Valentine Day to everyone. I guess wishing everyone on the V-day is not wrong at all.

I have a dilemma and it been with me for a long time, it is being perfect. It is so hard for me to keep and contain myself from being perfect all the time and yet i did it all over again to myself. Like today, i actually did screwed up some things in the office and sudden, my mood changed and i become heartless toward everyone aroune me. Pathetic isn't? I badly wanna change this bad habit but i don't know how and when it gonna change. To change, i'm gonna need a really strong desire but right now my only desire is to shop. How come la to change like this?

I shouldn't be complaining about this and i know the problem itself comes form me, the inner and the bad side of me. I just couldn't help it to feel bad everytime i screwed things up. Haih, life is so easy when we were kids. Now, life is so challenging and cruel, demanding and boring. If only i never grew up this fast. See, i can't tolerate if people do something wrong in work matter or even my life, and it's how it feel likes when i screwed up mine.

Please help me. I don't know how to stop being perfect because i know everybody do some silly thing and got screw up sometimes, they not born as an angel so do I.