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Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Secrets

Again because I can use the Coldplay's song as the tittle. Do you guys have a secret? I bet you do have kan,tak yah nak tipu sangat la kat sini,kbai. Annoying tak,because that the best I can actually do,the secret of being me. So today I want to reveal my secret here. And do you guys notice that I haven't post any picture in my blog here right? Because I don't want too,some sort the way to keep my own privacy. So please don't ask me why,I already give you my explanation right people?

Here is the list of my dark side :

1. I am very the baran people,sangat baran okay. Maybe it because pernah belajar karate when I was 7 years old and bila belajar kena kangkang sana sini,jalan bersepah,kaki asyik nak naik je,tangan pun cepat je nak bagi orang penampar and dulu mixed around with guys a lot,A LOT. Then bila dah master the karate skill,pantang orang cubit sikit memang aku belasah punya and I pernah belasah one chinese kid during my karate class because dia ejek nama I dari Tengku jadi Tengkujuh,totally not funny. And sampai hari nie,pantang dengar orang panggil nama Tengku je,memang aku takkan pandang dia or aku blah je dari situ sebelum aku angin. Kalau panggil nama penuh pun takpe. And masa first class standard 1,aku dengan selamba je pergi cakap kat cikgu kelas on my first day at school,"cikgu,I don't prefer to be called Tengku except you been calling my full name".

2. Jangan tanya soalan yang sama berulang kali or tanya soalan yang pada kepala otak aku kedengaran macam bodoh. Macam ko dah letak papan tanda cendol kecil RM3 and aku sendiri dah cakap nak cendol kecil satu pakcik,pastu ko boleh pergi cakap bandung nie RM2 ngan cendol nie RM2.50. Memang mulut nie teringin je nak jawab,"ada beza ke pakcik,kan tadi saya cakap saya nak cendol kecil satu". Tapi takdela jawab macam tu pun cuma itulah jangan nak tanya soalan macam tu lagi. Dahla aku paling benci nak kena cakap menda sama banyak kali,memang terus spoil mood.

3. Seorang yang sangat sinis. Ini macam kejam kan tapi ini memang tak dapat nak dikikis lagi dah. Aku paling gemar nak menjawab pada sesiapa je except pada parents la,orang lain termasuk la dalam category yang aku akan jawab balik even my boss. Yes,aku pernah menjawab balik kat boss aku sendiri and nasib baik tak kena pecat,haha. And biasanya aku akan menjawab dengan cara yang paling sinis sekali yang aku boleh fikir masa tu and kaw-kaw punya sampai boleh terasa and hempas pintu kuat-kuat depan muka aku tapi ada aku kisah pintu kau bukan pintu aku pun,lebih kurang macam tulah situasi nya.

4. I stand for my own right and thought. Yes,aku sangat outspoken and kalau aku rasa menda yang kau cakap tu,the fact macam bangkai je,memang aku akan bidas balik. Kau nak cakap kau anak Khir Toyo,boleh aku cakap la aku anak Sultan Brunei apa hal. Nak cakap macam tu,bukti mana der,tak main la cakap je bukti takde,sampai tua la aku tak percaya. Bak sini surat beranak aku nak tengok,nowadays people talk using a fact beb,kalau setakat air liur terpercik sana sini tapi bukti takde,memang takde orang nak percaya.

5. Tak perlu nak cakap besar depan aku pong pang pong pang tapi habuk pun takde,tak payah simpan je cerita Korea ko dalam poket ko aku tak sudi nak dengar. Muak sebab manusia macam nie berani cakap je,habuk takde. Words without an effort won't bring you anywhere man. Macamana nak bagi makan anak dara orang kalau berbekalkan air liur je? Nak makan pasir ke? Sampai bila la nak maju manusia macam nie?

So,ini jelah rahsia aku. Kejam and agak brutal rupanya seorang manusia yang bergelar Tengku Nurul Akmal binti Tengku Ismail nie. Sebab aku anak Tengku jadi perangai kena macam nie,bukan anak Khir Toyo pun. Sorry,terperli lagi.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

drive by

Selamat menyambut ramadhan kepada semua muslim dan muslimah semua. Bulan ini akan catat rekod paling banyak saya akan menuju ke dapur sebab I will be cooking for iftar and also encik teman lelaki iftar jugak. Susah bila kena jaga anak orang jugak nie sebab selera kami berbeza. Kebiasaannya saya suka lauk-lauk yang simple contohnya sambal tumis ke,masak air ke,singgang ke. Tapi kali nie,marilah memandang ke arah kari ayam,gulai ikan dan ayam sambal.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

wide awake

Yes,I ambil tajuk lagu Katy Perry because I can. As for all you know,I am currently working in a real working life. As I started my job a year ago,I'm fully excited and overwhelming with the ideas that I am finally working and can be independent. with the thought of being able to control my own expenses and shop for the branded designers and above all of that and now I finally realize that I am not happy at all doing what I am doing now which is working. Yes,macam tak bersyukur with what I have now but it was what I do thinking right now.

This time I will surely not put a blame on my hormone. I hate the fact to think that I have to wake up early in the morning and off to work. Being front with my office mate and boss,really made me off the mode for the whole day. Trust me,you will feel bad when you off to the place that you gained money every month but you hate the surrounding because I do feel that. Maybe I have the worse office mate ever. 

I can't understand people gives other people their own chores just to have pleasure surfing internet all the times and when boss doing some what-to-call-pengawasan-in-english,they gelabah and sometimes playing a role in front of boss' face. Pura-pura busy and all,and sometimes even menyibuk in my own work. But when boss not around,huh belang dah keluar. When all of this happened,I felt bad for myself. And that make me thinking,apa dosa yang I dah buat sampai orang layan macam nie? I sedih tau tengok manusia-manusia yang bermuka depan orang lain. 

I was a junior here,and sikap sendiri tak suka masuk campur urusan orang lain buatkan orang nampak I lemah and naive which is I am totally not. Cuma ada perasaan malas nak cari gaduh dekat tempat rezeki,so saya diamkan je. Dan recently I be thinking of resigning. Walaupun my friend bising cakap lately susah nak cari kerja,but I have already made up my mind hujung bulan nie nak resigning. I believe in Rezeki ada di mana-mana kalau kita usaha, Insyaallah. 

Sorry sebab meluahkan perasaan but I have too. Taknak serabutkan anyone else.

Friday, July 13, 2012

call me maybe


Lately I found out that when I hate something or someone it will shown straight away on my face,as I can't hide it away. This is bad right? Please tell me it is bad because it might hurt people feelings. As if I wish that I can keep it to myself only but I can't. Kalau boleh,although I really hate that person I don't want they know about it and I try to layan them so nicely until sometimes I felt like this is too much and I stop pretending that it's okay and I start to make face,hate face in front of them. Yet,despite of I have to work along with them I still can't help those feeling. I feel awful because I can't help the way I feel and the way people feels about me,I just don't give a damn about it. 

Maybe because of the hormone too. Yeah,blame the hormone is the best way now. Ramadhan is coming and I do hope that this feeling will get away and I will be better than this. Hate is killing and I don't want to be killed. Ain't good for anyone around me.

Monday, July 2, 2012

Patah kaki dan tangan

Siapa dah baca metro hari nie mesti familiar dengan title my post kan? Pelik kan,apa salah baby tu sebenarnya? Apa motif pengasuh durjana tu nak buat macam tu? Apa hak dan siapa bagi kau hak nak buat kat anak orang macam tu? Seriously,I do feel bad for the family,the baby family not the nanny. Pengasuh tu patut dikenakan hukuman gantung sampai mati tak pun patahkan je kaki dengan tangan dia pulak,biar dia rasa pulak macam mana azab baby tu. Bodoh punya manusia macam tu. 

Nanti anak saya,memang tak la nak hantar pergi pengasuh ke apa ke,nak jaga sendiri je. Sanggup berhenti kerja,anak kot susah nak dapat. Bernasib baik dapat la,anak kan rezeki. Siti Nurhaliza kahwin dah berapa tahun pun tak dapat anak lagi,rezeki kan Allah SWT yang tentukan. Saya memang sanggup berkorban berhenti bekerja kalau perkara-perkara macam nie berlarutan. Walaupun ajal jodoh semua kerja Allah SWT tapi kes nie memang trauma. Anak kot,siapa tak sayang. 

Biarlah hidup susah pun nanti,pendapatan daripada satu sumber sahaja asalkan anak saya selamat membesar,tidak didera sesiapa pun. Biarlah susah,janji anak-anak selamat. Sekarang nie pengasuh yang dah kenal lama pun tak boleh percaya. Dah banyak kes-kes macam nie berlaku? Mana tindakan dari pihak yang berkenaan? Senyap je,makan gaji buta ke? Patutnya kes nie dah lama settle dan takkan berulang lagi sebab ini berkaitan dengan nyawa generasi muda kita,anak-anak kita. Bertindaklah cepat,takkan nak terkena kat anak sendiri baru nak bertindak. Dah-dah la tu tidur petang,makan gaji buta,masuk kerja pukul 9 pagi balik pukul 5 petang,makan 4 kali sehari time kerja. Tak malu ke? Gaji nak banyak tapi kerja malas nak buat.