this ain't supposed to happen

Currently dah rajin exercise twice a week,main badminton actually. And since dah rajin exercise nie,I found myself macam dah kurang nafsu nak makan lagi. And I always had my meal in a very small portion tapi sometimes tak boleh lawan nafsu makan jugak kan kalau makanan sedap dah terhidang di depan mata and it delicious. And yes,I very much different now with my shape macam dah ada yang sedikit mengecil daripada kebiasaannya. Adakah bermaksud yang saya dah kurus and about to come back to my M size?

Well,boleh dikatakan I am determined untuk kurus because baju-baju lama dah tak boleh muat and I feel ugly being a fat woman. And mana nak cari booth to sell them,means like macam event yang purposely orang pergi during the weekends? Please anyone let me know because trust me,unused baju I not that bad pun and ada yang I bought it tapi tak pakai and some of them still have the tags on. Haha,membazir kan and lucky me my mother don't read my blog so she wouldn't know about this unless you tell her. 

Last night,when I just finished watching Looper with my man and went back to home,a car suddenly macam himpit us on the road. Can you imagined macamana I mengelabah dalam kereta menjerit macam orang gila when I actually not pun. This is not our first time or my first,dah banyak kali orang try nak himpit and tukar lane without signal betul0betul depan our car and made us macam berhenti mengejut atas highway yang busy tu. So,I was like bukak tingkap and menjerit pada kereta yang nak himpit kitaorang sangat tu,'tengok side mirror please'. I know that was not an appropriate action to do tapi biasala,orang kalau dah panic attack like that boleh berfikir dengan waras lagi ke? You tell me.

P/s : A date with Miss Maria Elena Zarul this Saturday STYLING SESSION AT TESCO MUTIARA DAMANSARA 2PM!! Awesome!

P/s/s : Part time tutor at Enopi Putra Heights start tonight,wish me luck! 

So I look in your direction,but you pay me no attention,do you?

Anger,how do you cope with this one? I personally have a really bad massive huge tempered,don't cha messed with me people. If I'm mad,trust me you won't bear to be around me even if you're my family. 

When I was little (ayat nak poyo speaking ongputih je),none of my family members akan got really freaks out kalau saya buat salah sebab they used to it. Yes,saya dibesarkan dengan tiada seorang pun ada hati nak marah si kecil budak comel kalau jentik sikit terus menangis dan pecahkan tv,yes saya pernah pecahkan tv rumah semasa berusia 6 tahun kerana telah dimarah akibat daripada pulang bermain ketika Maghrib (ayat poyo). Lalu dengan tindakan mengejut,saya telah menolak tv terbabit lalu ianya bersepai (enough with the SPM ayat).

Sejak daripada itu,mereka tidak lagi memarahi saya untuk sebarang kesalahan. Semasa umur 14 tahun,saya ponteng tuition class dan kantoi dengan abang saya,lalu balik rumah je terus kena penampar sebiji dengan pipi gebu. Dengan marah nya,saya ambil pisau kat dapur terus tusuk tayar motor dan 2 biji kereta di rumah,haha (gelak kejam). Semua macam tergamam lantas saya membuat muka poyo,berani nak marah lagi lepas nie?

Setelah selesai,mereka tak pernah marah sebaliknya menggunakan pendekatan bercakap dengan nada rendah walaupun tengah marah. Saya mengaku saya memang panas baran,tiada seorang manusia dalam dunia nie yang boleh cool down kemarahan saya melainkan emak saya. Mungkin korang nak bercakap saya seorang yang sangat kurang ajar,saya tak kisah. Kalau saya ambil peduli apa yang orang sekeliling nak cakap,da lama saya kebulur la nampaknya. 

Jangan cari pasal dengan saya,saya boleh maki orang dalam Bahasa Melayu dan English dengan lancarnya,haha. No la,kalau tak buat salah takkan kena maki. Cuma sekarang kena belajar nak control anger because of it's bad for me and my inner self. Like this morning,baru je lepas bergaduh dengan Encik Boyfie tapi macam biasala dia malas nak layan,pantang betul. Berbeza dengan Late Alex,dia tak pernah buat saya marah walau sekali pun,and even kalau saya marah dia akan mengalah dan cakap,I'm sorry tho not his fault pun. Tapi dengan Encik Boyfie,dia mengalah lepas tu buat muka-malas-nak-layan-perempuan-meroyan jadi ambil lah kau layan perasaan sendiri.

Cara untuk redakan kemarahan perempuan ini senang gila la wa cakap lu,BELANJA MAKAN BEST sahaja,amik aku bocorkan tips. Yes,dengan cara itu la Alex selalu redakan kemarahan selalunya belanja ice cream je,he's so sweet what do you expect? How I missed him each time I get mad sebab selalu terfikirkan muka dia yang cuak setiap kali nampak muncung itik saya keluar. He was my loyal friend,really loyal. Okay enough before I cried.

So,ada cara best lagi tak nak redakan kemarahan please let me know.

amal ismail

breath in the future,breath out the past

I guess I'm still holding on to something that i know will probably never happen because somewhere deep down inside me, I have this little piece of hope someday,it will.


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you wanna see my truth colour?

mesti pelik kan,apasal you wanna see my truth colour? yes,i'm about to show you my truth colour..

how many of you that knows me very well? like seriously very well? please put your hands up because i really wanna see them so badly.. how many of you knows my real name instead of 'amal ismail'? how many of you knows my favorite instead of tomyam pedas and also the chicken soup? how many of you knows my phone number? how many of you knows where did i actually lives? how many of you knows my real age? gotcha,i bet none of you.. all you got is bubbly and friendly amal ismail.. from the outside and when i am happy,it is the answer..

people come across to ask me,'what is your real name actually?'.. and i was like,you did mentioned that you are my friend and you do not know my name.. wanna slapped them! sometimes,people that you thought your friend knew less than you imagined about you,trust me! i have been in this situation and i was like,'you are my friend and you do not know my real name,are you kidding me buddy?'.. people like this are only after you for some pleasure moment that you can give to them,there is nothing serious about them.. so,please be extra careful when you are surrounded with this type of people..

so please friend out there,at least know something about your others friend.. if only his/her nickname,you can't called yourself his/her best friend yet.. I'm not sure what the type of person you are,but if you only wanna come and say hi,better don't.. because i have some friend that wanna live in me forever and yes,i do love them..

amal ismail

nothing big happened to me :D

I'm so sorry for neglected this blog of mine for quite some times,been too busy and so many thing comes up and yeah,I'm a bit lazy.. currently I'm having a very serious eyes infection.. hope it's gonna be better in any time soon..


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what i'm doing lately

nothing much,I'm spending my weekdays at my Love's workplace at the Lim Kok Wing's university.. it's my first time been there,so huge and yes so innovative yet awesome.. feels just the same like Taylor's but this time is kindda different because you can feel that you are welcome there because they are so friendly.. can i further my study there? :)

and also,Love's birthday is on Saturday but I'm wondering what to buy to him as his present.. please give me some idea that fun and attractive.. i don't want something that is so dull and boring..

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please pray for them

there is a tsunami happened today in Japan,been my dream country to go.. with the 8.9 ritcher scale,it is re symbol of 4 meters high of wave actually.. although i don't have any of my family members lives there,but please pray for them.. 20 were dead after an hour this incident happened and i guess it might be many more we still haven't know yet.. so please pray for them by remembering them and pray to God.. putting this incident as your status in facebook,tumblr or twitter but didn't do anything about it won't help each one of them,there.. tq!


amal ismail

ijazah sarjana muda teknologi maklumat (pengurusan pengetahuan)

hi,i back.. haven't been in here for a month and i miss you.. yes,i got an offer to further up my degree and it's an awesome.. :) so excited!

till then,
amal ismail

tired to be an angel

i'm in a big messed lately,friends problem.. i know i can't say this but i regret to be involved in it.. it breaks my heart and i am tired,it's tortured me enough.. i hardly can find any explanation to tell myself on why people act that way? so shame :(

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I wonder if the little things that remind me of you, remind you of me

Society is wrong. Dead wrong. We're taught that exotic is beautiful. We're taught to believe that miniature waists, and perfect tans are beautiful. We're convinced that the blonde girls with the gorgeous smiles will win every time. But, the truth is? Originality is beautiful. Big brown eyes, green eyes, blue eyes. Curves. Your natural skin tone is beautiful. Your hair color, your smile. Your voice, your laugh, your personality. Every inch of you is beautiful, every single part of you shines with your essence. You, my dear? You're lovely.

amal ismail

PS i love you

I don’t know why I love him the way I do. He makes me feel so safe and so loved, in his arms I am truly free. The way he looks at me sends shivers down my spine but I know everything will be okay. He always makes everything okay. When he smiles at me my heart could soar. Every stupid love song on the radio belongs to us. It’s so nice just to love him and not care and know that he loves me back. It’s nice to be with him and spend time with him and watch his sweet face as he sleeps and to feel his heart beat. I think if you felt our heartbeats they would beat at the same time. I feel like this is what I was meant to feel, like all the others were just practice, but this is for real. He makes me feel like I could be anyone and do anything I wanted. The way he protects me makes me melt, and the way he is so overprotective. I’m not afraid anymore, he’s always comforting me and letting me know he’s with me every step of the way. So this is what true love feels like.

amal ismail

secret

my love life is a secret,i wanna put it as a secret and unknown.. so you guys are so not gonna hear anything about my relationship in here,but i do talked about love..

till then,SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA PEOPLE :)

amal ismail

traditional person

I may not talk or act it, but I’m a very traditional person inside.. So it’s normal that I hold onto a lot of traditional values, like I believe in chivalry, I believe the guy should always be the main provider of the family, and I believe the lady should always look up to the man and respect him (provided he deserves it) etc. And I’m not anti-feminist but I don’t think women should spend half of their lives fighting for equality. Or maybe it’s just how I interpret ‘equality’ -Women wanting to do what men can do,be treated like men, wanting to be independent etc..But with ‘equality’, u can’t expect chivalry to also exist, can you? I think the word equality carries a negative connotation, the correct word here should be ‘empowerment’- where women don’t focus on demanding ‘equality between genders’, but to strive for better lifestyles and be involved in decision-makings, be aware of their rights, and be empowered to do what they want to do without being dictated by society etc..

Ok whatever.

“Where there’s no inequality, no dominance, no violation, no force, there is no sexual arousal” - Catherine McKinnon

I like macho guys. bye

amal ismail

have you?

Have you ever looked at the guy you used to like and think "Oh my fucking gosh, why did I like him?" You try to figure out what in the hell was good about him and nothing comes in mind that you begin to point out all the negative things. But back then when you actually liked him you didn't care about all those imperfections because they didn't matter to you..

amal ismail

i can always make you smile

Hi, I'm that best friend of yours who was always there when you were so down you didn't even feel like getting out of bed some days. But hey, your life's going good now right? You don't need me to listen to your problems or to laugh with any more, you've gotten yourself new people while I'm sat here gathering dust waiting for you to notice me and pick me back up.

amal ismail

i wish i couldn't feel a damn thing

amal ismail

meet my 1st love :D

'First romance, first love, is something so special to all of us, both emotionally and physically, that it touches our lives and enriches them forever.'


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