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Showing posts with label life and advice. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life and advice. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Secrets

Again because I can use the Coldplay's song as the tittle. Do you guys have a secret? I bet you do have kan,tak yah nak tipu sangat la kat sini,kbai. Annoying tak,because that the best I can actually do,the secret of being me. So today I want to reveal my secret here. And do you guys notice that I haven't post any picture in my blog here right? Because I don't want too,some sort the way to keep my own privacy. So please don't ask me why,I already give you my explanation right people?

Here is the list of my dark side :

1. I am very the baran people,sangat baran okay. Maybe it because pernah belajar karate when I was 7 years old and bila belajar kena kangkang sana sini,jalan bersepah,kaki asyik nak naik je,tangan pun cepat je nak bagi orang penampar and dulu mixed around with guys a lot,A LOT. Then bila dah master the karate skill,pantang orang cubit sikit memang aku belasah punya and I pernah belasah one chinese kid during my karate class because dia ejek nama I dari Tengku jadi Tengkujuh,totally not funny. And sampai hari nie,pantang dengar orang panggil nama Tengku je,memang aku takkan pandang dia or aku blah je dari situ sebelum aku angin. Kalau panggil nama penuh pun takpe. And masa first class standard 1,aku dengan selamba je pergi cakap kat cikgu kelas on my first day at school,"cikgu,I don't prefer to be called Tengku except you been calling my full name".

2. Jangan tanya soalan yang sama berulang kali or tanya soalan yang pada kepala otak aku kedengaran macam bodoh. Macam ko dah letak papan tanda cendol kecil RM3 and aku sendiri dah cakap nak cendol kecil satu pakcik,pastu ko boleh pergi cakap bandung nie RM2 ngan cendol nie RM2.50. Memang mulut nie teringin je nak jawab,"ada beza ke pakcik,kan tadi saya cakap saya nak cendol kecil satu". Tapi takdela jawab macam tu pun cuma itulah jangan nak tanya soalan macam tu lagi. Dahla aku paling benci nak kena cakap menda sama banyak kali,memang terus spoil mood.

3. Seorang yang sangat sinis. Ini macam kejam kan tapi ini memang tak dapat nak dikikis lagi dah. Aku paling gemar nak menjawab pada sesiapa je except pada parents la,orang lain termasuk la dalam category yang aku akan jawab balik even my boss. Yes,aku pernah menjawab balik kat boss aku sendiri and nasib baik tak kena pecat,haha. And biasanya aku akan menjawab dengan cara yang paling sinis sekali yang aku boleh fikir masa tu and kaw-kaw punya sampai boleh terasa and hempas pintu kuat-kuat depan muka aku tapi ada aku kisah pintu kau bukan pintu aku pun,lebih kurang macam tulah situasi nya.

4. I stand for my own right and thought. Yes,aku sangat outspoken and kalau aku rasa menda yang kau cakap tu,the fact macam bangkai je,memang aku akan bidas balik. Kau nak cakap kau anak Khir Toyo,boleh aku cakap la aku anak Sultan Brunei apa hal. Nak cakap macam tu,bukti mana der,tak main la cakap je bukti takde,sampai tua la aku tak percaya. Bak sini surat beranak aku nak tengok,nowadays people talk using a fact beb,kalau setakat air liur terpercik sana sini tapi bukti takde,memang takde orang nak percaya.

5. Tak perlu nak cakap besar depan aku pong pang pong pang tapi habuk pun takde,tak payah simpan je cerita Korea ko dalam poket ko aku tak sudi nak dengar. Muak sebab manusia macam nie berani cakap je,habuk takde. Words without an effort won't bring you anywhere man. Macamana nak bagi makan anak dara orang kalau berbekalkan air liur je? Nak makan pasir ke? Sampai bila la nak maju manusia macam nie?

So,ini jelah rahsia aku. Kejam and agak brutal rupanya seorang manusia yang bergelar Tengku Nurul Akmal binti Tengku Ismail nie. Sebab aku anak Tengku jadi perangai kena macam nie,bukan anak Khir Toyo pun. Sorry,terperli lagi.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

PTPTN issues

PTPTN memang jadi issue besar lately,everybody talks about it like it was the end of the world. Everybody includes my favorite blogger,Hanis Zalikha she is pretty I told ya. Okay,back to PTPTN. Saya bukanlah peminjam PTPTN tegar kerana saya adalah budak MARA tapi kenapa nak mansuhkan PTPTN actually,I don't see this langkah nak mansuhkan adalah yang terbaik dikalangan yang terbaik. 

Here are my reason (NOTE : my reason not yours) :

1. Saya bukanlah dilahirkan di dalam keluarga yang kaya raya boleh shopping tiap-tiap hari,parents migrates to States boleh pergi class bawa Bentley sebiji ke apa,no I'm not that rich. So pinjaman pelajaran adalah sangat membantu since saya gunakan duit yang diberi PINJAM itu untuk beli buku,makan,duit tambang bas,duit fotostat nota,duit sewa rumah,duit beli makanan untuk satu bulan dan duit topup. So kalau pinjaman PTPTN dimansuhkan,dan saya misalnya bukanlah kaya sangat,macamana nak sambung belajar?

2. Free education. Pinjaman MARA saya RM36,000 untuk 6 semester. So kalau 150 orang pelajar pinjam RM36,000 = RM5,400,000. Pengetahuan umum saya mengenai keadaan ekonomi Malaysia takdela gred A++ cuma saya boleh katakan Malaysia mungkin boleh bagi pendidikan percuma cuma ianya tidak akan dilaksanakan dalam masa terdekat ini. In fact,Hanis Zalikha menyatakan yang Finland bagi pendidikan percuma untuk rakyat jelatanya. Itu Finland,kita Malaysia. Kita belum mampu lagi. Pendidikan dekat sekolah rendah dan menengah free ke? Dulu rasanya bayar yuran sekolah,yuran peperiksaan,yuran PIBG,yuran koperasi la semua tu. Mungkin free pada masa sekarang,tapi rasanya yuran sekolah free tapi lain-lain yuran tak free kan? (called kakak jap nak tanya pasal yuran). Confirm wey,yuran sekolah je free yang lain-lain mak ayah tanggung lagi. Batak semua nak free korang nie kan? Seluar dalam ngan bra nak tak kalau orang bagi free? Mesti malu nak ambil kan,takut ada orang ejek.

3. Mahasiswa yang nak sangat mansuhkan PTPTN sampai sanggup buat bantahan. Boleh saya tahu sebabnya? Apa yang membuatkan korang nak sangat mansuhkan pinjaman tu sebenarnya? Taknak bayar,tak mampu bayar,mengada taknak bayar atau korang memang kacang lupakan kulit,habis madu sepah dibuang? PILIH! Kesian,masa nak pinjam memang lembut habis,cakap baik-baik pijak semut pun mati. Tapi masa nak bayar,bantahan sana sini,buat malu golongan mahasiswa sahaja. Tak tahu diuntung betul perangai macam nie. Nasib saya dah tergolong golongan bekerjaya.

4. Interest tinggi. Kepala otak semua interest tinggi,pinjam bank nak beli kereta dengan rumah tu,interest lagi tinggi la wey sampai 8%? Nie 1% je pun,ia 1% nie baru diwar-warkan tahun nie je pun tahun sebelum nie tinggi tapi melampau sangat alasan taknak bayar pinjaman sebab interest tinggi. Okay,pinjam duit mak ayah lepas nie kalau nak sambung masters sebab PTPTN interest tinggi. Kalau mak ayah tak bagi,pergi buat bantahan duduk,mogok lapar,pukul polis sana sini. Tak pun,tetak je mak ayah,sekarang nie kalau tak puas hati belasah je,jangan bagi muka langsung.

5. Tak rasa malu ke dah pinjam duit orang lepas tu taknak bayar balik? Kalau duit sendiri,RM10 pn berkira kejar sampai mati inikan beratus ribu ringgit macam tu,lagilah orang kejar. Tak malu ke tiba-tiba kena tahan dekat airport sebab tak bayar duit PTPTN,mak malu tau nak oi. Bukan kena bayar terus sejumlah besar tu,boleh bayar sikit-sikit apa,slow-slow lagi. Bayar relaks jelah,janji bayar jugak. PTPTN stands for PINJAM TAHU,PULANG TAK NAK. 

6. Mak Ayah dah kaya,reason nie memang best sekali. Siapa cakap macam nie memang antara golongan berlagak dengan duit orang lain,habis mak ayah ko kaya hari nie esok kalau bankrap,ko nak belajar pakai duit siapa? PTPTN jugak. Kalau result gempak,takpela jugak. Nie result buat malu muka mak ayah je,tak payahla sambung belajar,buat perabis duit je.
 
 Bukan nak cakap besar sebab duit pinjaman MARA saya pun belum habis bayar,tapi saya cuba untuk bayar setiap bulan pada masa yang ditetapkan,sebab saya fikir ada lagi orang yang tak bernasib baik,hidup susah tapi kepala otak genius nak sambung belajar dan nak guna duit tu. So,ikhlas saya bayar balik sebab nak tengok seorang lagi anak bangsa kita berjaya. Mana kesedaran sebagai manusia,hamba Allah? Kalau nak cakap hukum hutang dalam Islam,memang pengetahuan saya cetek. Saya cuma boleh nyatakan pandangan saya secara umum sahaja. 

Sekian. Tak puas hati,boleh cari gaduh kat comment box (eh,tak mau la ea).

Thursday, April 19, 2012

I really miss talking to you

Don't be afraid,even though people might say what you're doing isn't cool or isn't right. I promise you,you will not regret it if you stay true to who you are and what you love to do.

How can something that's supposed to make you so complete,end up leaving you so empty?


amal ismail

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

this girl hate being cheated twice

trust needs to be earned not gained,have you ever heard that? well,i am sure you do,pretty much sometimes.. whenever we do or whatever it takes to go through lives these day,trust is important in fact it is cruel nowadays.. you can't easily put your trust on strangers just like that without even thinking about the consequences that might comes back,crawling back days?

as it goes for me,i will never trust someone so easily,in fact i am hardly trust someone.. but once i did,it will always goes for you.. and if you crashed it once,there is not gonna be the second chance coming.. that is just me,the girl that ain't gonna let herself being cheated,twice! once is sucks,twice is more than sucks,it is bad ass!

so when you crushed my trustworthy on you,you can have your ass off to hell,that is where you supposed to go after you betrayed someone.. i don't seems to understand why people these days were so easily break it? don't you seems to take care about the people who trust you dude? that doesn't make any sense these day man? it is crazy you know,when you woke up one day and you realized that you can't trust anyone on the day because they are just not worth it.. I'm feeling that people..

so i have enough of these trust-thing-that-people-should-know.. I'm taking care of my own self now,which is a lot of hell better than I'm hoping for anyone else.. yourself are your own best friend actually.. the goods and the bad,yourself will never turned you down..


amal ismail

Friday, September 23, 2011

please clean your mess!

(gambar nie takde kena mengena langsung)

do you people have a housemate? because i have yeah! okay,vain! i wanna talked about housemate in this entry.. i have a truly pengotor housemate ever that i ever met.. pengotor okay people,like seriously pengotor!

1. she did not clean up the kitchen after she cooked and she did not clean the plate and the glass after she used it.. she just leave it in the sink for somebody else clean it and clearly me!

2. the bathroom,i feel so disgusting to use it after her.. hair is all over in the bathroom and she like don't even know how clean them up after she bathe.. i used to clean up the toilet once a week and she never clean it up.. she just used it and never clean up,i was like her maid you know.. sometimes i used to talk out loud like,'bitch clean up the toilet please you jerk'.. fine,i was bragging.. but i do talk like,'i just clean up the toilet a few days ago and now it stained again,please take care of what we use together'..

3. the garbage.. argh,i hate this,but she never throw away the garbage if we asked her to do it.. leave it tomorrow and the day after and the day after and it got stink and we have to throw it by ourselves.. she does not have the housemate spirit that we should being doing the chores together..

luckily now i have no longer share the same bathroom and i no longer use the kitchen.. i spend almost my time in my room after work,so don't have to be around her anymore.. i just cannot stand with the people that can't clean their own mess and simply asked for others to do that..

please clean up your own mess!


amal ismail

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

stalker,it's for you


my life seriously memang takkan pernah ended with this type of person,stalker.. started when i'm doing my diploma until i'm in working,stalker is everywhere.. and i have one thing that i don't understand about stalker is,how do they picked their subject means the person to be stalked?

i wish somebody can tell me,but unfortunately not.. silent stalker is actually good because they won't do anything that harm you.. they just go through your profile,your wall and your picture.. just that! but the copycat stalker,something that i used to call this type of stalker is really pissed me off.. to tell you the truth,i have nothing to stalk about.. i live just a normal life,just like you did..

so,I'm confuse when i just posted a status in facebook and in a minute i found out you,the stalker posted the exact same status as i did and you using the picture as the same as i did.. fine,maybe i'm being so perasan and when i'm changing my profile picture using a picture that i found out cute on tumblr and yes,you did it too.. please,get your own life because i feel so rimas when i found out there is someone out there just like me.. i'm sure you don't want 2 'amal ismail' right? i'm trying to be me and i think you should be you,just you.. create your own image and get your own life,because you don't own this life,it's my life honey..

the only 'amal ismail',

amal ismail

Thursday, September 8, 2011

the price of beauty



second chance,not every person worth it.. appreciate the first chance because second chance are rare.. once you hurt the first chance,the second chance won't comes easily..

why am i talking about the second chance? because i do feel regret about something in my past and now,i won't get the second chance so easily.. so,apa yang ada with me right now,I'm accepting the flaws.. so,please appreciate everything that come incidentally,unplanned or you don't even want it because somehow someday,you might feel that it worth a thousand times for you..

yes,that the price of chance.. you lose it,you might don't have a chance to get it back.. like when you're in a relationship,you left him and someday you might crawling back for him somehow.. that is why,appreciate it while you still can and enjoy it to the fullest.. there is no second chance for you if you wasted the first one,because the second chance are rare.. only the luckiest may have them.. definitely,i'm not amongst the luckiest person to have that.. regret on something past is something that not nessecery so earn them yourself,make your chance.. because if you work hard for it,you don't need any luck to earn it :D

the person that might not have the second chance because the second chance are rare,

amal ismail

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

i'm talking about you.. yes,you!



what does you understand with 'anonymous'? stranger right? yes,i wanna talked about stranger but i posted out the Leighton picture :)

well,all my life i have been dealing with stranger.. all the time when i did said this.. i could said that now,when it comes to an anonymous i don't bother about it anymore.. i don't give a damn at all.. yes,go to hell with anonymous.. let me clarify about anonymous,do you know them? do you be friend with them? does they know you really well? NO,they don't.. they don't even know you well.. all they do the best is critics you and put a blame on you the most.. sometimes i do think,what will happened if i listen the anonymous said all i feel bad about myself on what and how should i behave? i guess i don't have freedom then..

when you are dealing with this some nonsense crap,ignore them is what you can do the most.. always remember that anonymous will only bring harm to you.. avoid them and do not take any serious about what they said because they are nothing,just some wind blow that finally will fade away.. put them aside and live your life as usual.. let sit back and relax because anonymous will shut their mouth after finally they get tired after badmouthing you..


amal ismail

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

let me give you the answer


people always asked me whether i don't have a hard time or whether i don't facing any trouble in life?

let me give you the answer then.. i do have a trouble,a problem sometimes and i also facing a hard time sometimes but what i always do,i smile and be calm all the time.. as my mum say,'nak gelabah buat apa,relaks jela'.. just facing your hard time with calmness because when you takes it too serious,it will kill you! trust me when i said,it will turns to you back.. just be calm,take a deep breath and smile..

problems,it will come and go in our life and we have to be able to handle it well.. don't be panic when you turn out to be in trouble just think on other solutions and it will be better.. i always think none of the problem or trouble that cannot be solve just you have to make yourself believe that you're in trouble and think of the solution that will bring no harm to yourself..

so next time you are in trouble,just SMILE!


amal ismail

Thursday, November 25, 2010

hang on there!


hey bestie,don't get upset.. maybe she don't deserve you and maybe you are way too good enough for her.. trust me,i have been there in your place for so many times,so just hang on there and smile because it will cure.. it just need some times.. i know you tough enough to handle it and I'm glad you called me.. whenever you feel down,you know that you can count on me although it 3 am in the morning,I'll always have time for my friend.. just chill :)

you still have 4 years to go,bring back your medicine scroll for me and we are so gonna rock the world together :D

don't get upset because of someone that doesn't belong to you,it's not worth of it.. love will come to you once you are ready for it.. don't search for it,it comes upon you.. don't worry,this pain will help you learn the rest of this journey..
back in your summer break and we go hunt the local girl for you :P

amal ismail


p/s - i'm gonna told your mum that you are not studying back in Ireland but you are flirting with those hot chick back there! you are so out of your allowance this time.. oh,i want my present,you know what i meant!

Saturday, November 13, 2010

reminder to myself

One of the advices I would give to my children is to NEVER OVER-ANALYZE. Especially not about people you surround yourself with everyday(unless it concerns his or her future).. Seriously, f*ck trivial issues like “does he or she talk about me behind my back?” “what if he or she’s just friends with me for a reason?” “Is he or she using me?” “what does he or she really think of me?

Who gives a shit really? First of all, people are always gonna talk about you behind your back, you just have to ACCEPT IT.. secondly, half of the stuff you hear from people might not even be true! Instead of wasting 2-3 hours of your precious day trying to resolve a “world-crisis”, get on with your studies and be friends with EVERYONE regardless of their intentions, but just be careful when you’re around people who mean harm..

And please, I’ll shove dog poo in my kid’s face if he comes up to me one day and says “oh mommy I’ve made a list of my closest friends and I’ve canceled off the bad ones”. A list? Seriously? Are u fucking kidding me? Get a job child! -ignore the shove dog poo in my kid's face-

We’ll always encounter all sorts of people in our lives- selfish ones, ignorant ones, manipulative ones, nasty ones, rude ones, (without them the world won’t be an interesting place) but we all need to get off our high horses and stop making judgments- “oh what is wrong with this person? why is she like this? should i confront her, it’s for her own good”..

There’s more to life than our “little circle of friends” whom we’re constantly trying to ‘fix’. Let them be the way they are, that’s what makes them THEM. At the end of the day, u know u enjoy being in each other company and everyone’s gonna be there for each other..

but kid,if you are tired to deal with this bunch of people,WALK AWAY and COME TO MOMMY.. because I'll know my kid better and they don't deserve you in their life stranger.. i want them to be tough enough to face the stranger in their life because the stranger is only there to watch my kid's destroy but i won't let them win.. i learn the pain and mad in life,it ain't easy and it ain't sweet and i don't want my kid's to feel it too.. if they fall let them fall in front of my knee cause i smashed them down to give them a lesson not THEM..

the end

amal ismail

p/s - I'll make sure i tell this to my kid some day

Monday, November 8, 2010

it's not so bad

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.

amal ismail

where were you?



who is your best person that you might choose to listen to your problem? as for me,i run over to my mum's hug all the time.. the best place ever in my life.. trust me,run to your mum's hug first because that is the secure place ever.. only our mum will understand us better than anyone else..


amal ismail

Sunday, November 7, 2010

will you marry me?


'when we got married I told my wife "If you leave me, I'm going with you.And she never did.'

amal ismail

does the cupid really exist?



grace means more than gifts. In grace something is transcended, once and for all overcome. grace happens in spite of something; it happens in spite of separateness and alienation. Grace means that life is once again united with life, self is reconciled with self. grace means accepting the abandoned one. grace transforms fate into a meaningful vocation. It transforms guilt to trust and courage. The word grace has something triumphant in it.


amal ismail

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

forgiveness is the best remedy


'Dan tidaklah ada yang mereka ucapkan (semasa berjuang), selain daripada berdoa dengan berkata: “Wahai Tuhan kami! Ampunkanlah dosa-dosa kami dan perbuatan kami yang melampau dalam urusan kami, dan teguhkanlah tapak pendirian kami (dalam perjuangan); dan tolonglah kami mencapai kemenangan terhadap kaum yang kafir.'


amal ismail

Saturday, October 30, 2010

clearly i'm paranoid


yes,i am paranoid.. take note people..

life teach me that i can't put a trust on no one even a family itself.. but luckily i have an outstanding family.. can't imagine life without them.. yes,i often talk about family in my post right,this is because i don't have many of friends.. i am afraid to mix around and make friend because i don't simply TRUST people..

i find it is so hard to put my trust in anyone..



amal ismail

Monday, October 25, 2010

because i have a stressful morning,here you go


'A true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that’s holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever. Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then they leave. And thank God for it'



amal ismail

Sunday, October 24, 2010

i wanna,i wanna touch you and you wanna touch me too

i pledge to be happy all the time no matter what happened towards me,i just wanna be happy.. please be jealous people,because i no longer scared to show my emotion.. even if paparazzi nak hentam i lepas nie pun,sila la.. wah,macam ada je a bunch of paparazzi nak hentam i kan?

i bumped into someone special,oh and he is a MAN.. when i said man,he is older.. the way he looked at the life,amazed me.. so positive and so much energy in it and yes,i do tertarik to his way of looking the life.. so much like i did,the way i look at the life..



'i always look the life like there is no tomorrow.. i always do whatever i wanna do today,everything today in just 24 hours.. if i wanna be in KL or JOHOR or any place today,I'll make sure I'm gonna be there.. if i feel likes wanna fly today then i go for it.. you are still young,you should enjoy this life while you can.. think positive and look at the world on the other side.. use your third eyes and you see the world,the life like i did.. don't you let yourself fall for someone or something bad that will drown you,because you not worth for it.. you're 21 and i'm sure there is a lot of thing that you wanna do in life right? do it now,live like there is no tomorrow for you and you will get your ultimate enjoy..'



yes,i learned something new today..


amal ismail